May 14, 2023 My spring and the warm sunshine arrived too quickly, too hastily, catching me off guard. In the blink of an eye, it’s already early summer, soon to enter the peak of summer. Indeed, I still very much like summer. Summer can bring many wonderful things and also happiness. Mengmeng and I have been together for over a month now, but it feels like we’ve known each other for a very long time....

March 20, 2023 “I should set off, there’s still so much to do.” I always anticipate setting off, yet the path beneath my feet remains unchanged. It seems like I’ve been contemplating for a long, long time, pulling myself out countless times only to push myself back in, constantly looking back at the light while walking towards the abyss. Perhaps to others, it appears more like a kind of silent groaning, more like self-degradation....

March 16, 2023 “Size your time.” Today, while watching “Dark Glory,” the female lead’s body was scarred from being burned. This suddenly brought back memories: I’ve also been burned before. I can’t remember the exact time, it should be around 2009. I remember it was before I started elementary school, I don’t know if my parents still remember this incident. There was a burn on my right arm about the size of a thumb....

March 12, 2023 “Nothing is impossible; the capacity for self-deception is infinite.” Suddenly, I wonder, why should I burden every day of my current life with the unknowns of the next 30 years? To eat the next meal well, to do the next task well, to walk each step well, to witness each sunrise accurately. Specifically, it’s about eating what’s in the bowl, doing what needs to be done, walking the path beneath my feet, and enjoying whether it’s sunset or dusk, sunrise or nightfall....

February 27, 2023 After much thought, I finally feel willing to write something. I always thought that enduring would make things better in the end. How naive. Is it because others think you can endure that they treat you like this? ​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​ The recent period of despondency has left my writing inspiration nearly depleted. I can’t even articulate logically strong arguments, indicating that emotions still have a significant impact on me....