February 27, 2023 After much thought, I finally feel willing to write something. I always thought that enduring would make things better in the end. How naive. Is it because others think you can endure that they treat you like this? ​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​ The recent period of despondency has left my writing inspiration nearly depleted. I can’t even articulate logically strong arguments, indicating that emotions still have a significant impact on me....

14th day of the first month of the year Gui Mao Funeral Procession It is now the 15th day of the first month, February 5th. We are already on the train back to Inner Mongolia. It’s half-past midnight, feeling somewhat dazed yet somewhat awake. As we approach the destination, without any particular thought, I decided to write down this account. On the Gregorian calendar, it’s February 4th, the 14th day of the first lunar month, at half-past four in the morning....

12th day of the first month of the year Gui Mao Cremation At seven in the morning, we arrived in Shijiazhuang in the blink of an eye. Upon some reflection, I realized that the last time I came to Shijiazhuang was seven years ago. Back then, it was also because of a transfer, passing through Shijiazhuang. The subway in Shijiazhuang was newly built at the time, and the roads were heavily congested....

A Bunch of Mess in My Mind I just posted this on my Moments, knowing that no one will probably see it anyway. Lately, I’ve encountered many new people and new things. They have given me a lot of unrealistic fantasies and attempts, making me feel as though success is within reach on one hand, yet incredibly challenging on the other. Yes, recently I’ve entertained the idea of studying abroad. Not to mention the exorbitant tuition fees, just the vast amount of knowledge and skills required is enough to intimidate anyone, let alone the high tuition fees and difficult-to-grasp language…...