March 16, 2023 “Size your time.” Today, while watching “Dark Glory,” the female lead’s body was scarred from being burned. This suddenly brought back memories: I’ve also been burned before. I can’t remember the exact time, it should be around 2009. I remember it was before I started elementary school, I don’t know if my parents still remember this incident. There was a burn on my right arm about the size of a thumb....

March 12, 2023 “Nothing is impossible; the capacity for self-deception is infinite.” Suddenly, I wonder, why should I burden every day of my current life with the unknowns of the next 30 years? To eat the next meal well, to do the next task well, to walk each step well, to witness each sunrise accurately. Specifically, it’s about eating what’s in the bowl, doing what needs to be done, walking the path beneath my feet, and enjoying whether it’s sunset or dusk, sunrise or nightfall....

February 27, 2023 After much thought, I finally feel willing to write something. I always thought that enduring would make things better in the end. How naive. Is it because others think you can endure that they treat you like this? ​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​ The recent period of despondency has left my writing inspiration nearly depleted. I can’t even articulate logically strong arguments, indicating that emotions still have a significant impact on me....

14th day of the first month of the year Gui Mao Funeral Procession It is now the 15th day of the first month, February 5th. We are already on the train back to Inner Mongolia. It’s half-past midnight, feeling somewhat dazed yet somewhat awake. As we approach the destination, without any particular thought, I decided to write down this account. On the Gregorian calendar, it’s February 4th, the 14th day of the first lunar month, at half-past four in the morning....

12th day of the first month of the year Gui Mao Cremation At seven in the morning, we arrived in Shijiazhuang in the blink of an eye. Upon some reflection, I realized that the last time I came to Shijiazhuang was seven years ago. Back then, it was also because of a transfer, passing through Shijiazhuang. The subway in Shijiazhuang was newly built at the time, and the roads were heavily congested....