December 16, 2023 When my brain starts to convulse, my thoughts begin to go crazy. Madness grows wildly, filling and repairing all my gray memories. From the darkness at the beginning of the year, the scattered stars before the darkness, to the current confusion, everything seems familiar, with no peaceful days. Why isn’t pain a form of artistic expression? When I laugh bitterly, it’s still a laugh; in a sense of inexplicable oppression, I swing my fist toward the world filled with cotton, and at that moment, anyone who comes close to me will be attacked....

Under the Ula Mountain I spent a day visiting my hometown in Bayannur. To the north lies a mountain, the Ula Mountain. Stretching for hundreds of miles, it’s a barren mountain. Standing on the roof of a bungalow, I saw vast expanses of cornfields, reminiscent of scenes from “Interstellar.” However, this time coming back, I did feel a bit like time traveling. This feeling came from the four-hour journey from the capital to the Hetao Plain, as well as from the reunion after a long absence from February to September....

March 16, 2023 “Size your time.” Today, while watching “Dark Glory,” the female lead’s body was scarred from being burned. This suddenly brought back memories: I’ve also been burned before. I can’t remember the exact time, it should be around 2009. I remember it was before I started elementary school, I don’t know if my parents still remember this incident. There was a burn on my right arm about the size of a thumb....